by Rebecca Clemmons
I hope you aren’t thinking of me, I hope you aren’t wasting your time. I hope your thoughts aren’t always on me, and all that you didn’t do right. I hope that you’ve forgiven yourself, and aren’t still beating yourself up. I hope that you can think of someone else and I hope that you don’t fuck that up. I hope that when you go to sleep, your bed doesn’t feel so empty. I hope that of all the memories you keep, the good ones with me are plenty. I hope that you don’t lay awake at night, I hope tears don’t fill your eyes. I hope you’re not haunted by the ghost of my light I hope you never realize. I hope that your memories deceive you I hope you forget what I’m like. I hope you forget the way that I was how my body feels, what my voice sounds like. I hope that you don’t regret losing me, I hope that you don’t think of it every day. I really hope that you aren’t sorry, that you did this because you wanted it this way. I hope you don’t know how much you hurt me, I hope you don’t know what you did. Because if you really knew either of these, I would hope they would never have been. But most of all, I hope you never loved me, just like you said you never did. I hope that it was all just a horrible lie because I hope no one in love could do what you did.